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[ He wanted him to-- ]

Ichi... ru?

[ Silver melts into warmth, cracking the ice beneath a cold exterior as Zero looks at him almost hesitant to believe his own ears. ]

[ Somehow, this response was just to be expected. Honestly, he didn't know what he was expecting. He didn't know enough about this person to even make this sort of commitment but speaking-- who else could he trust? It wasn't like those words would be forgotten. He was the only one that said that to Ichiru. Even if he was blank slate, he still knew who he could trust.

This person-- his brother was probably the closest thing he had to a family-- and perhaps an ally. AS much as he treated some others just as well, Zero was different He's always felt that. It wasn't even about them sharing the same face, or the same blood. ]

Don't look so shocked. Even without me saying, you understand don't you?

[ He looks straight as his brother without any sort of hesitation.

His actions from sticking around with the temple and Cerberus when Zero was gone for that time. They were all pretty obvious that he had his own way of valuing people he considered worth it. ]

[ His eyes slide down, the ice cracking under the pressure of something heavy. ]

....

[ It made sense. If he wanted to live in this world without restraints then he needed a god. It was a simple matter really. It had nothing to do with him, but with what he was. What he'd become. ]

You want to fight ayakashi.

[ It was the only reason why he would need a name when he'd already given him everything else. ]

[ He sighs. Did this person know him... really? OR maybe he just really came off that way? He's not very good with his emotions is he? Well... he suppose he had no choice in the matter. ]

That's a bit presumptuous isn't it? I wouldn't merely ask for something like this just because I want to fight Ayakashi. If that was the case, anyone off the street would have been fine.

[ There's a pause as he crosses his arms. ]

Do you really think I'd surrender my freedom and will for something so ridiculous?

I could never tell what you were thinking, Ichiru.

[ He thought he did but time had proved him wrong. ]

The same could be said for you, Zero. If you can't tell me what you're thinking, then how can you ask me?

[ Sometimes. He didn't even know what he was thinking about.]

Is it not enough that I've approached you personally regarding the matter? I'm uncertain to how more direct I can be.

[ Being honest about things wasn't his way-- and even more so now that he didn't have anything to argue about. It in of itself is very frustrating, yet he's still here right? What could he possibly want? That he didn't like him-- that he was attached? Those kinds of things are too difficult for him to admit. There were plenty of things he was trying to understand. ]

Then, why? After all this time, why do you want me to name you?

[ He can't... won't believe his own instincts. He needs the words. ]

[ Honestly, he couldn't even tell Zero why if he wanted to. There were possible reasons, and possible outcomes. There's too many and each and every one was very difficult. However, there was one thing that he was certain. He wasn't interested in looking for some other God. ]

You sure like making things difficult don't you? I suppose I can't blame you.

[ there's another sigh from him. ] Honestly, is it that important to you?

[ He feels like he knows the answer but he's going to ask anyway. ]

[ Yes. ]

.....

[ He's quiet. Light eyes staring at him for a moment, needing a moment to shut down his own feelings. ]

When?

[ When do you want him to name you? ]

[ Zero would probably understand his feelings when he names. It much easier that way. Words weren't exactly his strong deck of cards after all. He at least says this for the silence, in which usually means that it was. ]

It has to be you.

[ No one else. At least he was pretty firm with that answer. Following the question, he replies ]

I'd rather sooner than later, but I'll leave that up to you.

[ 'It has to be you.' ]

......

[ His heart cracks. What is he supposed to say to him... to that? ]

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[ Words leave him, but it doesn't matter. He doesn't need them, he never did. Not with Ichiru. Words had always gotten in the way when it came to them. He only ever knew him when... he reaches forward and quietly envelopes his hand in a gentle embrace. ]

[ That's as honest as he'll ever really get from Ichiru. On the flip side, it will not be something he will force himself to repeat again. Saying even the simplest of those words already made him partially regret it in a different.

After all, he can only watch as Zero's reactions changed significantly. He never truly understood why but it was very obvious to him that his existence was very effective to Zero in more ways than one.

Strange as it was, he was getting used to the random display of affections, feeling the other's hand in his own. ]

...

[ The gesture is a token from their childhood. Even if Ichiru can't remember, he does. All the late nights he stayed up with him when his fever ran high, all the different medications he had to take just to sleep through it. How he would stay up with him until his fevers broke. How he would take his hand when they were alone just the two of them. Back then, that simple gesture meant the world to him. It meant Ichiru didn't hate him for what he'd done to him in their mother's womb. He should have but he didn't. ]

What about now?

[ Ichiru can't deny that it felt... nice. Someone else's warmth. He didn't have any of his memories, so he'd never really knew what warmth felt like. Sure, Zero had hugged him out of nowhere several times, and cried even on him, but that was all in the past.

The current Zero had no memories of what he had done. Those gestures still lingered on the back of Ichiru's mind. The last time he really was this close to Zero was when he got injured during the whole prayers event. Beyond, that he had kept physical contact to a minimum, only because he didn't really know how or what it meant.

It was just like right now. He didn't know whether to return the gesture or rip his hand away. Eventually, he just let his hand stayed where it was, held, warm. It was all very strange. ]

If that's what you want.

[ What he wants... That was the thing Ichiru never understood. The only thing he ever wanted... His lips curve into a faint smile. ]

I want you to be happy, Ichiru.

[ With or without him. ]

[ Ichiru looked at him with a raised brow and a slightly tilted head. ]

Do I look that unhappy to you?

[ He replied, his expression changing briefly. ]

Ne, Zero, you're quite an odd one. Rather than focusing on yourself, you're always concerned about me. Even if I can't remember you, there's only so much oe would do for eve their families. You certainly go above and beyond.

[ He shakes his head. ]

Even if you don't remember me, there's nothing I wouldn't do for you, Ichiru.

[ He extends his arm taking his hand in a gentle hold. He looks at him, a small smile lingering at the edge of his mouth as the ritual thrums at the back of his mind. Like an old Hunter spell, it takes little coaxing to bring the knowledge to the forefront of his mind. ]

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[ He raises two fingers, index and middle, and power begins to glow from the tips, emitting a soft blue light. ]

You.

[ He presses the soft light to his heart and begins writing with precise strokes. ]

With nowhere to go and nowhere to return. I grant you a place to belong.

My name is Hades. [ A kanji begins to emerge. ] Grasping your true name, I bind you here. With borrowed name, I dub you my servant. [ The last stroke is dealt. ] The name answers, the vessel to sound. I call you as my divine instrument. The name, Ichiru. The vessel, Itoshii. [ The kanji 愛 glows strongly, it's meaning beloved. ]

Come, Itoshiiki.

[ And disappears inside him. ]

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Then you have your answer, don't you?

[ He mused, his expression unchanging. However, he could see Zero's emotions changing. What an odd person. Even at the smallest things, he was content. He didn't really understand that, nor will he ever. He had to remember them first to understand but it was becoming harder to find answers. He was always left with questions in the end. ]

Perhaps, if I could remember you, these words would have more meaning. You're honestly a strange person saying things like this.

[ He replied with a small chuckle. ]

[ This wasn't something he had ever seen before but he watched as Zero did his thing. He watched the other take his hand and grasp it. The words and chant start to grow as he watched the ritual play its part.

He can't say he's ever actually thought of letting someone be this close to him but he was aware that this person was more than just another family member. There was something deeper, darker even. What could it possibly be? Not that he could dwell on it too long. He'd only make things worse for the both of them.

That symbol "Itoshii" makes its mark behind his neck. the place where he was marked felt strange if only for a moment. Eventually, the call of his name changed his form. A beautiful Katana, replaces the human boy that was standing there moments ago. ]

Itoshii huh?

[ Okay, he can't help but find that name really cheesy. Zero earns light laughing from his brother turned sword. ]

I didn't think you were the sentimental type. Ah how peculiar, this form.

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